I love a lazy Saturday morning! They hardly ever happen at my house, and when they do, I enjoy them to the fullest. This morning I slept past 7:00, laid in bed longer than necessary, I am still in my favorite fuzzy robe and I am working slowly on a cup of coffee. I do have a long to do list waiting for me, but it can wait.
Our school year has started off strong and I know its because a lot of people have been praying for us. Thank you, and please keep those prayers coming! I know that everyone has had a crazy 2020 and we all have unique situations that we are juggling. I can’t say that my 2020 has been any crazier than anybody else’s, but it has been crazy for sure. But, in the midst of it all, I have felt God’s peace and He has answered so many specific cries for help. My faith has grown deeper still during this season of life, and for that I am very thankful.
I must confess that I have been dealing with quite a bit of anxiety over the past couple of months. This past week I have been wrestling with it and crying out to the Lord to help me. Sometimes, what we really need, is to just get to the root of the source, and this week that happened. I realized that I have been worried way too much about people’s opinions of me. This morning I read this scripture and I felt like a great weight was lifted off of me.
“For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10
This is a lesson that God has been teaching me for a long time. I tend to be a people pleaser. It’s not that I’m a really great person who wants to make the world better for everyone, or anything noble like that. It’s actually rather selfish. I want people to like me. I want to have a good reputation. I don’t want to be misunderstood and I definitely don’t want people to be mad at me.
I have been known to work myself into a frantic state trying to make everybody happy and I have slipped into the depths of despair when I was not successful. But, over the past few months I have learned that, first of all, I am not responsible for your happiness. Second, I don’t need you to like me. Third, everyone is entitled to their opinion, but if you try to be what everyone thinks you should be or do what everyone thinks you should do, you are going to go insane. And last, but not least, sometimes people are going to be mad at you, and often times it has more to do with their own misery, than it has to do with you.
Do you have any idea how freeing this is? However, it’s not the most important part.
The most important thing is this. The foundation of my life should never be about pleasing people. I am a servant of Christ, and I need to live a life that pleases Him. He shows us all how we should live as we meet with Him and study His Word.
I’m certainly not saying that I should disregard people. The Word of God clearly states that I am to love the Lord with all my heart, and to love my neighbor as myself. (Luke 10:27) But, the truth is, sometimes, even when you love your neighbor as yourself, they still may not like you. Maybe they wanted you to love them in a way that wasn’t healthy for them. And it’s okay, as long as you didn’t sin against them and you have loved them unselfishly, the way you know that God has called you to love.
I want to know God more and more. I want to understand His ways and walk in them. I want to be a servant of Christ. When trying to decide how I should live, I want the Bible, not man’s opinion, to be my guide.
So today I am reminding myself to go forth and be who God has called me to be. I hope that my simple words will encourage you to do the same.