I have not written in quite a while. The past few weeks have involved a few days of totally spontaneous fun, adjusting to my husband’s new work schedule and getting school started.
I had a mini-meltdown the other day. I have been overwhelmed since school started. Getting in a new routine is always difficult for me. The house has been messy. I have felt stretched thin. On top of all that, I had some trouble sleeping for a few weeks. When I don’t sleep, I lay awake and over think pretty much everything. I was dwelling on all of the areas where I felt that I was falling short. I ran to the trees for my meltdown. I’m glad they can’t talk. I prayed to my Heavenly Father and then I had a long, hard cry.
I don’t mean for it to sound like life is bad right now. It’s not! My husband’s new job is amazing! He works half as much as he used to. He is home a lot more and it is wonderful. School seems to be going well. I see great things happening in my kids’ lives.The child that I always have to chase around to get their school work done has stepped up and is taking major initiative. Another child, the one I worry about the most, has had some neat opportunities to learn new skills. One of the other kid’s hearts has been really soft towards the Lord. A new sweetness has come over them and they want to be baptized. Life is good. I’m simply spinning a lot of plates these days and keeping everything going can be overwhelming at times.
Yesterday I got together with one of my good friends. She’s the kind of friend that even though we don’t get to spend a lot of time together, we know each other. We don’t have to spend time getting reacquainted or talking about the weather, but can get right down to the real business of life. We had coffee at a cute little bakery and then she went and sat with me while I got my hair done. We talked and talked and talked…and then we talked. It was so good and so needed, and today I feel ready to conquer the world. Or, at the very least, ready to conquer my messy house.
In the midst of busy times, we have to prioritize. Some things may not get done as well as we would like, and sometimes there are things that we would like to do, that we cannot. I am learning that during these crazy busy times, the most important part of my day is the time that I spend on my knees, giving my day to The Lord. My favorite place to pray is somewhere out in the middle of a field or in the woods. I wake up early enough to go to one of those places every morning. I praise The Lord for every blessing, I cast every care upon Him and I ask Him to direct my paths. I am always praying in my mind, but there is something powerful about being still and quiet before the Lord. I long for that special time with Him each day. I love to spend time with Him. In fact, I am going to spend some time with Him right now.
You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.
I hope that whoever is reading this has an amazing day. Seek the Lord and Let Him direct your paths today.